Destiny

Memories flutter across the viewscreen of my mind, reality melting away around me, immersing my heart in the river of emotion. Stronger and deeper than I’ve ever known, it’s long sharp claws rake through me, forever changing all that I had come to be leaving behind the unfathomable certainty that you were all I’d ever wanted and will ever want. If the flame burning in your heart for me were ever to puff out in the furious winds of change, no one would ever be able fill the hole left in my heart. The remnants of your presence lingering forever etching our story in my soul, continuing to shape all I will ever be. Every moment shared with you snatched up and sealed in the halls of my memory to always remind me of the happiest time in my life.

Perfection is a Memory Caught in Time

The world is made of art.

Secret beauty locked away in every detail.

People walk around with closed eyes and minds.

But you see the world for all that it has the potential to be.

Snapshots of life frozen forever, saved from the decay of time.

Each pixel of wonder trapped for pleasure, capturing more than just the moment.

Neverland

I’m swimming through the cold ocean of space,
Rainbow coloured stars racing past, bubbling up to the surface.
Searching for the first star on the right.
Oops, ran out of pixie dust, and now I’m falling.
Down, down, down, back to the Earth, back to the ground.

There I am young again, 13, lying on my back in the grass,
My parent’s yard, the perfect place to see the stars.
Clear, cold night air wrapping around me.
My heart’s filled with wonder, faith, trust,
The world hasn’t stolen these from me yet.
It’s so beautiful out here and I know that everything will always be ok.

The darkness fades and I’m walking through a forest.
Sunlight is filtering down through the trees, lighting my path.
The cool crisp air fills my lungs with moist forest smells.
A gentle breeze sweeps through the trees, leaves rustling.
The world is at peace.

My eyes are closed.
I hear the gentle patter of rain on my window.
The computer birds twitter and tweet away.
I can smell him, sweet heavy aroma of smoke and sweat.
His hands brush the hair from my face and I open my eyes.
A smile is spread across his face, lighting the dark.
My heart swells with love and joy.
Stars shine in his eyes and I know there will never be another.
Soft lips press gently to mine,
And everything is perfect.

Lost Time

Time slips away. Like water, it flows through my fingers. No matter how much I grasp or clutch at it, I can not obtain it. I only want to freeze it for a short while. Hold it still in my heart for just a moment. So much has been lost to its ever changing force. And it tears at my soul.

What am I to do? I can never get those missed moments, that I long so deeply for, back. I look around at the world, moving by so fast, and know that I will never have the chance to shape your soft clay heart. My being aches at the loss. I cherished you in myself before anyone ever had the chance to know you. And when I first saw you, I loved you harder than I will ever be able to love another. Every time your tiny soft hands took mine and led me down another path, I knew that everything was as it should be. Perfect, care free, eyes smiling up at me. I would hold you tight, and every scar that toughened my heart would soften in your glow. Kissing you was like kissing an angel.

Now I'm just left with the emptiness of lost time. I'm haunted by the ghosts of what will never be and tormented by the memories of what was. And I know that I will never be the same.

I love you my Baby Girl, always know that.

The Judgement

I look around and I see it in their eyes. They're judging me. They don't know me but they're judging me still. I'm different. Not what they think I should be. People fear what they don't understand. And me, they don't understand me. I'm not a bad person. I believe in light and love and the natural beauty of the world. I find myself in awe every day of the wonders that the Goddess has bestowed on us, her children. This to them though, it is wrong. And so I am judged. My intelligence means nothing to them. My essence of being is tainted by my difference and that makes me wrong. No matter the beauty that glows from my soul I will always be the dark that they fear. I stand before this podium as the gavel of public opinion is banged and the judgement is reached. Guilty is the verdict bestowed upon me. . .

Beautiful Idol

I look up at you, my heart races.
You are the most amazing creature.
Too wonderful for the mortal world.

I worship you like a God.
You tower over me and engulf me in your presence.
Overpowering my sences with all that you are.

I am yours, completely forever.

In Control

Swallow. Deep breathes. I am ok. No one can get to me unless I let them. No one can make me react to these illogical emotions. I am in control of my mind. I will not let it turn to irrationality. I will not let fear consume me. Every time I feel that heavy warmth in the pit of my stomach I push it down with all of my might. I will not let it win. I can control these animal instincts. Too proud to limp away and lick my wounds like an injured puppy. I am the master of my fate and to let these dark feelings take me would be giving up the keys of my life.

The Breaking

A fracture, thin and delicate.
Pressure, solid hit.
Gasping for breath.
My heart racing faster and faster.
A raging fire; rushing, blazing.


I can't let it consume me!
I must not let it win!
I am strong.
Stronger than it!
Fighting to hold control of my mind.
Pushing myself back to logic.


Initial landslide.
Shocking pain.
A snapping feeling.
Icey cold fingers grabbing my heart.
Clawing, tearing, ripping me apart.


I am stronger than this.
I've been here before.
I can win out over this challenge!
Of this, I am sure.