A Travelers Blessing

Welcome weary traveler, I'm here to help you out.  A kind word, smiles to share, and just a bit of generosity   Tears and troubles, I'll hold them for a while.  Lighten the load crushing down and influence with positivity   I know it's dark outside and your journey's long.  But hold out hope that in the future you'll finally find your way home.

Originally Written July 2, 2013

The Fool

Crushing.
A snap.
Shattered glass.
like tinkling bells

What's left to say?  Haven't we already played this play?  Scene for scene, star crossed and heart wrenching.  Tragedy and love and oh whoa is me.  No time to stand, not even a second to spread my wings.

Trapped.
A caged bird
struggling to sing.
hear me chirp

It's come down to this.  Worn down to raw nerves and hurt feelings.  I find I resent you for making my life harder.  Dark cloud of negativity drowning me, my lungs fill and I can't keep my head up. 

Leave!
I'm not sorry this time.
It's not me, it's you...
I refuse to play the fool. 



Originally Written July 17, 2013

Never Enough

It's not enough.  I gotta do more.  Things are relatively good for me.  But every day it's something new with him.  And it usually needs money. And he's so moody and temperamental.  He gets mad because I've started ignoring things I can do nothing about.  So he assumes I don't care and that I'm being distant.  But this is my battle .  I have to keep him going.  I'm the hero in this story.  I'm just depressed.  Ryan's being a selfish kid and I'm overwhelmed.  He's such a burden on me. Everyone sees it. My back is breaking.  Everyone hears it. He's suffocating me.  Everyone feels it.  Conflict-ion.  Another way of saying I'm having trouble, the weight of both sides is crushing me.  My knees and back crack with every new layer of this and that.  I know it could be simple.  Could.  But it isn't nor will it ever be.



Originally Written July 17, 2013

The Fall

I'm falling and I'm scared
stuck here in free fall
drowning gloriously in your eyes
words I fear to speak aloud
what ifs running through my mine
my heart aches and I know what I want
everything'll work out in time.



Originally Written July, 17, 2013

Vertigo

The world is moving in slow motion.
My head is spinning and I'm running so fast!!!
But I still can't seem to quite reach...
before I'm falling arms cast out,
futile attempt at catching balance.



Originally written July 17, 2013

Drunken Longings

breaking open
what a time
darkness surround
and what am I supposed to do?

a wound
dark red blood
deep inside
the flow is strong.

a brokenness I can't explain
what am I supposed to say?
take me
take me away....

Happily Never Happens

Shattered to pieces,
jagged and sharp.
Eyes from from raging
I don't even know where to start.

Achy emptied out feeling,
torn apart inside.
I never wanted this. 
How can I say goodbye?

I saw a future,
bright, happy, and true.
I knew exactly what I wanted,
you.

Wedding bells and children's laughter.
Smiling family.
But that image has been torn away,
and all that's left is you...then me...

Seperate.
I was counting on forever,
now you're gone.
Looking forward to...never...

Origins

We are all sparkling shards of the universe.

Each being as unique as snowflakes. 

Born of light and dark,

we find balance and understanding within our stardust souls.

Fumbling, stumbling human hands,

feeling their way through an existence of uncertainty.

Eyes closed, balance lost.

We forget the path to truth.

Minds shut tight and eyes closed and blind.

What have we become?

Origins forgotten,

a race lost to the repetition of history.