Choices

Life is comprised of choices.  Which road to follow, what path is the right one?  With every decision made, three more follow.  Every step we take molds us into a new shape.  We are the masters of our own destinies.  Inevitably, as flawed beings, we will make mistakes.  And when mistakes happen we have no one to blame but ourselves.  A terrible but true realization. 

We all look for someone to place blame on, never wishing to accept that we laid our own lot.  In youth we are so innocent and free, never realizing how dark the world around us really is until we are forced to face the consequences of our choices.  

The world is a harsh place that erodes our convictions and leaves the nerves of our sensibilities raw and exposed.  And in this exposure the true trials of life begin.  Choices aren’t so easy anymore.  Nothing is simple black and white.  Wrong and right blur together and we must use the tools we’ve gathered to discern which path is right for us.

Poisonous Stain

Tell me love,
Where do you get off?
I fuckin carried you!
Loved you harder than anyone could.
My heart beat,
blood pulsing through me,
only to bring you happiness!
My every waking moment,
my every passing thought.
All that I wanted,
was to make it not your fault.
Point your finger,
assign me the blame.
As long as it makes you hurt less,
I can bear this pain.
And still here you are,
ungrateful husk of a wanna-be man.
Poisoning my mind,
with your childish stand.
Move on, let me go.
It's over and I wanna be left alone.

A new journey, together.

My heart expands. Heat fills my lungs. My legs are weak and I’m lost in those soft curious eyes. The person that you are confuses and intrigues my sensibilities. Always pushing me to do better for myself because you do better by me. Righteously furious, a man of unique character, you don’t back down. Standing your ground chest set for the things you hold sacred. The reality of you towers over me and I am engulfed in your humour, your smile a shock right to my heart. In the heat of that smile I find that I can’t help but glow warmly back up at you. The light you bring to my life cannot be dimmed by the shadow of clouds from my past. This new path set before me, a journey we take together.

More than Like

A slow subtle uncertainty.
It creeps through me.
In my blood,
Filling my body with electricity.
Stars explode in my eyes,
And the sun shines in your smile.

More and more,
Everyday,
Every way.

More than like.

Legacy

Words can’t capture this rush.

A headtrip engulfed in a body high.

Thoughts racing, circuitry in my brain.

I can follow them with my eyes.

Feel them with my mind.

Time warps and everything moves so slow.

Eyes wide, vivid colour pulsing through the air.

Ribbons of beauty and light.

Magic is real you see.

Open your eyes to every possibility.

Breathe in sheer potential.

The simple magnitude of that smile.

You can change the world, if you just believe.

Stamp your mark in the minds of the future.

Make a difference.

INSPIRE,

CHANGE,

GROW!!!

Our Beautiful Lie

I miss the beauty.
Words that didn't have to sound.
Time melting around us.
Stars dazzling my eyes.

Memories, playing on movie reels.
Flicking and fluttering through my heart.

Agony.
Like razors slicing to the bone.
Longing.

A laugh track tickles my ears.

Wasted Potential

I look around at my life.
Every wall strategically papered with posters…
none of which mine.
Opinions represent me,
the ideals of another,
adopted as mine by proxy.

So much spirit.
So much light.
A revolutionary locked in time…
living the lives of other people.
A rag doll,
silent; mouth sewn shut,
sightless button eyes.

Star embers burning my heart.
Restless soul, crying out to me.
Begging for a chance,
to be the person I could be…
So tired of rotting in this decay,
the stench of it all nauseating,
agonizing over my seeming helplessness.

This isn't me.
Somewhere along my travels,
somehow through the years…
This world washes through me.
And I know I can change it;
what I was meant to do,
a story I was meant to lead.

Take charge, take control!
Wake from that deep sleep…
the fairy tales lied.
Make the most of life.
Time for me to grab the reins;
can't allow myself,
to live a life stagnate.

Put an end to this wasted potential.

Overtaken

A simple smirk.

And there!

My heart's racing breathlessly on my sleeve.

What did you expect?

Smiling at me that way.

With those eyes,

and with that face!

You knew this would happen.

Your charm a magnet,

tugging at me playfully.

A bright glimmer,

sweet sweat glistening.

Heat rushes through me,

with your every trailing caress.

Trails of kisses,

my vision blurs.

And there you have it,

I'm yours.