A Travelers Blessing

Welcome weary traveler, I'm here to help you out.  A kind word, smiles to share, and just a bit of generosity   Tears and troubles, I'll hold them for a while.  Lighten the load crushing down and influence with positivity   I know it's dark outside and your journey's long.  But hold out hope that in the future you'll finally find your way home.

Originally Written July 2, 2013

The Fool

Crushing.
A snap.
Shattered glass.
like tinkling bells

What's left to say?  Haven't we already played this play?  Scene for scene, star crossed and heart wrenching.  Tragedy and love and oh whoa is me.  No time to stand, not even a second to spread my wings.

Trapped.
A caged bird
struggling to sing.
hear me chirp

It's come down to this.  Worn down to raw nerves and hurt feelings.  I find I resent you for making my life harder.  Dark cloud of negativity drowning me, my lungs fill and I can't keep my head up. 

Leave!
I'm not sorry this time.
It's not me, it's you...
I refuse to play the fool. 



Originally Written July 17, 2013

Never Enough

It's not enough.  I gotta do more.  Things are relatively good for me.  But every day it's something new with him.  And it usually needs money. And he's so moody and temperamental.  He gets mad because I've started ignoring things I can do nothing about.  So he assumes I don't care and that I'm being distant.  But this is my battle .  I have to keep him going.  I'm the hero in this story.  I'm just depressed.  Ryan's being a selfish kid and I'm overwhelmed.  He's such a burden on me. Everyone sees it. My back is breaking.  Everyone hears it. He's suffocating me.  Everyone feels it.  Conflict-ion.  Another way of saying I'm having trouble, the weight of both sides is crushing me.  My knees and back crack with every new layer of this and that.  I know it could be simple.  Could.  But it isn't nor will it ever be.



Originally Written July 17, 2013

The Fall

I'm falling and I'm scared
stuck here in free fall
drowning gloriously in your eyes
words I fear to speak aloud
what ifs running through my mine
my heart aches and I know what I want
everything'll work out in time.



Originally Written July, 17, 2013

Vertigo

The world is moving in slow motion.
My head is spinning and I'm running so fast!!!
But I still can't seem to quite reach...
before I'm falling arms cast out,
futile attempt at catching balance.



Originally written July 17, 2013

Drunken Longings

breaking open
what a time
darkness surround
and what am I supposed to do?

a wound
dark red blood
deep inside
the flow is strong.

a brokenness I can't explain
what am I supposed to say?
take me
take me away....

Happily Never Happens

Shattered to pieces,
jagged and sharp.
Eyes from from raging
I don't even know where to start.

Achy emptied out feeling,
torn apart inside.
I never wanted this. 
How can I say goodbye?

I saw a future,
bright, happy, and true.
I knew exactly what I wanted,
you.

Wedding bells and children's laughter.
Smiling family.
But that image has been torn away,
and all that's left is you...then me...

Seperate.
I was counting on forever,
now you're gone.
Looking forward to...never...

Origins

We are all sparkling shards of the universe.

Each being as unique as snowflakes. 

Born of light and dark,

we find balance and understanding within our stardust souls.

Fumbling, stumbling human hands,

feeling their way through an existence of uncertainty.

Eyes closed, balance lost.

We forget the path to truth.

Minds shut tight and eyes closed and blind.

What have we become?

Origins forgotten,

a race lost to the repetition of history. 

My Burden

And with a word, I want you to feel. . .

Each syllable a command to your senses,

demanding you to yield. . .

Open eyes wide and see the darkness of the sky.

You’ve gotta see to traverse these trails!

Please my friend, heed my kind words, learn from you past.

If each mind that feels the gravity of these words,

turns solemnly and takes steps to learn. . .

Then I’m fulfilled in all my endeavors.

The power of my speech is destined to shake. . .

Break apart the defenses and grow through to your senses,

pushing aside the illusions showing reality in it’s crystalline light.

Hear me out!

The most important words.

Cause in the end,

the burden is yours.

Surreal

Memories consume my mind, like a dream from which I cannot awake.  The stars are raining down around me, cosmic tears.  As though the universe can feel the quaking of my heart and is crying with me, sharing my ache.  

Choices

Life is comprised of choices.  Which road to follow, what path is the right one?  With every decision made, three more follow.  Every step we take molds us into a new shape.  We are the masters of our own destinies.  Inevitably, as flawed beings, we will make mistakes.  And when mistakes happen we have no one to blame but ourselves.  A terrible but true realization. 

We all look for someone to place blame on, never wishing to accept that we laid our own lot.  In youth we are so innocent and free, never realizing how dark the world around us really is until we are forced to face the consequences of our choices.  

The world is a harsh place that erodes our convictions and leaves the nerves of our sensibilities raw and exposed.  And in this exposure the true trials of life begin.  Choices aren’t so easy anymore.  Nothing is simple black and white.  Wrong and right blur together and we must use the tools we’ve gathered to discern which path is right for us.

Poisonous Stain

Tell me love,
Where do you get off?
I fuckin carried you!
Loved you harder than anyone could.
My heart beat,
blood pulsing through me,
only to bring you happiness!
My every waking moment,
my every passing thought.
All that I wanted,
was to make it not your fault.
Point your finger,
assign me the blame.
As long as it makes you hurt less,
I can bear this pain.
And still here you are,
ungrateful husk of a wanna-be man.
Poisoning my mind,
with your childish stand.
Move on, let me go.
It's over and I wanna be left alone.

A new journey, together.

My heart expands. Heat fills my lungs. My legs are weak and I’m lost in those soft curious eyes. The person that you are confuses and intrigues my sensibilities. Always pushing me to do better for myself because you do better by me. Righteously furious, a man of unique character, you don’t back down. Standing your ground chest set for the things you hold sacred. The reality of you towers over me and I am engulfed in your humour, your smile a shock right to my heart. In the heat of that smile I find that I can’t help but glow warmly back up at you. The light you bring to my life cannot be dimmed by the shadow of clouds from my past. This new path set before me, a journey we take together.

More than Like

A slow subtle uncertainty.
It creeps through me.
In my blood,
Filling my body with electricity.
Stars explode in my eyes,
And the sun shines in your smile.

More and more,
Everyday,
Every way.

More than like.

Legacy

Words can’t capture this rush.

A headtrip engulfed in a body high.

Thoughts racing, circuitry in my brain.

I can follow them with my eyes.

Feel them with my mind.

Time warps and everything moves so slow.

Eyes wide, vivid colour pulsing through the air.

Ribbons of beauty and light.

Magic is real you see.

Open your eyes to every possibility.

Breathe in sheer potential.

The simple magnitude of that smile.

You can change the world, if you just believe.

Stamp your mark in the minds of the future.

Make a difference.

INSPIRE,

CHANGE,

GROW!!!

Our Beautiful Lie

I miss the beauty.
Words that didn't have to sound.
Time melting around us.
Stars dazzling my eyes.

Memories, playing on movie reels.
Flicking and fluttering through my heart.

Agony.
Like razors slicing to the bone.
Longing.

A laugh track tickles my ears.

Wasted Potential

I look around at my life.
Every wall strategically papered with posters…
none of which mine.
Opinions represent me,
the ideals of another,
adopted as mine by proxy.

So much spirit.
So much light.
A revolutionary locked in time…
living the lives of other people.
A rag doll,
silent; mouth sewn shut,
sightless button eyes.

Star embers burning my heart.
Restless soul, crying out to me.
Begging for a chance,
to be the person I could be…
So tired of rotting in this decay,
the stench of it all nauseating,
agonizing over my seeming helplessness.

This isn't me.
Somewhere along my travels,
somehow through the years…
This world washes through me.
And I know I can change it;
what I was meant to do,
a story I was meant to lead.

Take charge, take control!
Wake from that deep sleep…
the fairy tales lied.
Make the most of life.
Time for me to grab the reins;
can't allow myself,
to live a life stagnate.

Put an end to this wasted potential.

Overtaken

A simple smirk.

And there!

My heart's racing breathlessly on my sleeve.

What did you expect?

Smiling at me that way.

With those eyes,

and with that face!

You knew this would happen.

Your charm a magnet,

tugging at me playfully.

A bright glimmer,

sweet sweat glistening.

Heat rushes through me,

with your every trailing caress.

Trails of kisses,

my vision blurs.

And there you have it,

I'm yours.

Diffusion of Thoughts

My mind is the paper,
my thoughts the ink.
Lyrical laughter spilling from my mouth as I taste the words,
trying them out.
Repeating them just to see.
Each syllable unlocking magical meaning.
A whole world inside my head,
encased in earnest verse.
Breathe life into words,
speaking giving birth.
It was said, spoken unto me,
I'm god, and I said let it be.

Slaying Dragons

Take a trip. A journey.

Quest beyond the front door.
Trek away from the sidewalk.
Skip over the beaten path.

A new chapter. A fresh start.

A bright new world.
The beginning of a new story.
Roaring adventure waiting beyond the next pass.

Just embrace it. Accept it.

Become. Believe. Acknowledge. Receive.